I Didn't Know My Own Strength

As many of you know, the past few years have been so very difficult for me. Losing a best friend, losing the love of my life, then losing my mom, coupled with finding out and dealing with lupus; I'm ashamed to say that I lost hope, that I gave up. I gained all that weight and was so disconnected from who I used to be, from all that I wanted to be. And I just didn't care.

I don't know what turned it around. Perhaps, in my darkest time, reaching out to my creator, he intervened, and gave me the strength to fight back. Or, perhaps, he helped me find that strength within myself. I feel stronger than ever now, have lost thirty pounds (yes, I have a long way to go), and have reconnected with the things that matter most to me: family, helping others, teaching, and most importantly, God.

I'm glad I finally, as my friend would have said, "Pulled my head out." It was getting dark in there, and it wasn't very comfortable. For those of you who are and have always been there for me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, and look forward to sharing the rest of my life with you.

This song, by Whitney Houston, really tells it, doesn't it?



Whitney Houston - I Didn't Know My Own Strength

Lost touch with my soul
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream,
Thought it would be the end of me
I thought I’d never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life
My way out the dark
Found all that I need
Here inside of me
I thought I’d never find my way
I thought I’d never lift that weight
I thought I would break

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

There were so many times I
Wondered how I’d get through the night I
Thought took all I could take

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength